Comfortable Television

[singedsun]

I'm still feeling tired and worn down by this year and the 12 months just in general. I feel like this six months-ish fatigue I'm feeling is the fact that my hormones and my body is still recooping after the hysterectomy. They did tell me it could be up to a year before I really felt back to normal. However, there's also the matter having stepped down off on my regular Fibromyalgia meds in the last several months. It's been about three weeks I've been off them altogether and I'm definitely notice there's a more defined fatigue/brain fog that wasn't there even just before. My rheumatologist update isn't for a few more months left and I for sure need to see the GYN sometime very soon since I'm up on that six months mark since surgery. I've just been putting it off. We took out the offending organ for a purpose, so I know I just need to get my shit together and make the appointment. Which cycles back around to feeling like I don't the mind or energy for most of it.

The migraines from this round of pressure systems and winter weather definitely isn't helping. After the baby shower on Saturday for my sister, my mother called one of my brothers (the one I'm close to) and asked if he knew if something was wrong with me. Apparently I was "off" in a way she didn't want to attribute to tiredness or fatigue or just generally being over her stress about having the party in my grandparents house which has been reduced to a bunch of old furniture and a few stitched together memories. They've already moved into their retirement center, but the grandkids haven't been allowed to help with any of it because they don't want certain "elements of our family" picking through the leftovers of their house. I both can't blame them but am slightly annoyed by the whole process, because it leaves my mother and step-father to do most of the work when her siblings won't help.

This whole year has just a lot; both the month and a half of 2020 and the whole last 12 months. About this time last year, I was getting in trouble at work because I was having health issues we later found was attributed to my rebelling uterus. But the stress at the office itself hasn't really subsided and I've twice now been scouted by outside agencies for lunch meetings to talk about what it'd take to get me to leave. And knowing I have big options doesn't help with the day to day stresses, when I do truly like my team.

In the interim, I'm finding it own to lash on to new shows, especially long or dramatic ones. So I've been settling back into familiar territory, which I feel like I do just about this time every year. Thank you, winter moods. Recently, I rediscovered that Miranda (the British sitcom starring Miranda Hart) is on Hulu, so I picked that up tonight and watched a few episodes. If you like heartfelt comedy and can stand a bit of cringe (and a little out of date comedy) I really recommend it. This and Black Books are my seasonal go-tos, because every episode makes me laugh at least once. But with Miranda, I also feel so much for the main character, because she's size 20 woman in her mid-thirties who is not conventionally attractive. She's treated as awkwardly loveable and honestly I relate overmuch maybe, considering the number of toys on my desk at work.

(Also of note about Miranda if you've never watched it: Tom Ellis, now better known for his role as Lucifer Morningstar on the American television show, Lucifer, plays Miranda's friend and potential love interest. There's only 3 seasons, 20 episodes and it's just good fun.

Usually one run through the three seasons of either show is good to make me feel back to normal for a little while. So a couple of days and we'll see where I am. I guess. If I need a little something else, there's always Black Books or Black Adder... or by then I might be back to dramatic horror movies for a little while. (Stoker is almost always one of my go-tos.)

honigfrosch is doing a love meme (anon or not is up to you) and I'd love for it to take off and give some people some happy vibes. My post is here.

Comments

[sideways]

Oh, that's a lot of health woes stacked up. Hopefully some will ease going forward!

I'm still very fond of Miranda. It's for the most part such good-natured and life-applicable comedy.

[singedsun]

Even in the last like what decade or whatever it hasn't all aged incredibly well but I still adore her comedic timing and the breaking of the fourth wall.

[fucktheg0ds]

Hope you start to feel better soon!

Miranda, Black Books, and Black Adder are three of my long-term favourite shows - you have excellent taste!

[singedsun]

I don't rewatch series very often once I've finished them. (I am not the sort of person that puts a sitcom on in the background, just because.) But Black Books and Miranda I return to about once a year (just enough time to forget all the fine details) and Black Adder every couple of years, because there's more of it I guess? But yeah.

[riotheclown]

February sucks. And yes hysterectomies and all that other shit. Whoa.
I got a S.A.D. lamp and I know it sounds like voodoo but it really helps. As for the migraines I was on nortriptoline for 6 months but I was having Hemoplegic migraines (partial paralysis) and had a bad fall and concussion so I was ready to try anything and was unable to work anyway...the side effects were rough at first but gradually I felt better and I haven't had a migraine in four years. I definately could not work for the first two months on it and felt unbalanced for a long time and super sensitive to hot weather. But part of that was the concussion.

At 62 I finally am migraine free for the first time (except for a brief period in my youth, did lots of mushrooms) and it is amazing. I have had LARGE stress that would normally got me back in a migraine cycle since but have had NO MORE MIGRAINES.

Hope you feel better soon.

[singedsun]

I do have an appointment with a neurologist in April -- which was made for me in December because specialists are such a pain. But I'm hoping the fact that I can identify the differences in my migraines and symptoms will put me on a better route than 'here take this drug that only really works if you take it right before the migraine starts in earnest'. Which is no solve for "what if I wake up with one" or "what if I've had the same one for days in a row".

[rose_griffes]

Yeah, that's a WHOLE LOT of stuff. Wow. I'm glad that post-hysterectomy health is improving, even though there's stuff to do in other areas.

A good friend of mine recommended Miranda; I wish I'd known it was on Hulu before I put that account on hold. (The Good Place ended and I wasn't invested enough in any other shows to keep paying for it every month.)

[enemytosleep]

Just sending some good vibes as you find your course.

[lassarina]

Sympathy hugs for the migraine :( I'm in the winter pits myself and need to make appointments for meds and follow ups and just....ugh.