Short Attention, Stir Crazy
Aug. 27th, 2019 03:35 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
singedsunEven though I'm still sleeping through a lot of the day because my sleep is all off, I'm finding that when I am awake, I have a really short attention span. This is to be expected when healing and stuck in the house. I'm not free to drive on my own yet and won't be until my doctor gives the okay on the 10th of September, so I'm stuck here during the day. Since I'm on a lift-restriction and not supposed to bend too much, there's also not much I can do on my own around the house. I've given myself a little project or two, but I really need people's help to get stuff done.
There's also a lot of executive dysfunction that comes from being home and unable to do much, which goes with the short attention span. Sometimes I can just chill in front of Netflix and binge something for hours, but today all I had the attention for was short YouTube videos or half-hour tv shows that aren't following a narrative of any kind. I've been going back and catching up on old episodes of Hasan Minhaj's Patriot Act on Netflix, which is good because each episode has a different topic, there's no narrative to follow.
I did take a writing commission the other night from the person that was messaging my second AO3 account, it's only 2k words and they gave a really detailed outline of what they want. I told them I'd have it done within the week, but after a day like today where I just felt out of it most of the day, I don't really have the focus to work on it. I've got an idea on how it starts already though, so once I have the focus, I feel like I'll just be able to sit down and pound it out in a few hours.
I reached out to my sister and my best friend about coming out to visit me this week. I think if I had someone here with me, I could get a couple of things done and I know that having someone here will keep me from just losing several hours to sleep or brain fog. My sister is going to come out tomorrow and I want to go through the toddler clothes we have just in a big pile right now, maybe give her some if we have stuff that's still small enough for a baby since she's expecting.
My birthday is Wednesday and my best friend is going to come out that afternoon and said she might bring this old movie with her that we love for us to watch. I'm also hoping that the ThredUp bag I ordered might be here by then and she can help me pick out pieces to fill that up with to mail out. Matt's taking me out to a fancy dinner Wednesday night, so maybe if we don't have the ThredUp bag by then she'll be willing to help me do my makeup or something instead.
Maybe I can have Matt's mom come out again on Friday, depending on how she's feeling. Matt's dad was in the hospital over the weekend with low blood sugar/low blood pressure as a result of some medication interaction. He's home now and better, but I don't know if she'll feel up to leaving him alone come Friday or not. I'll wait until Thursday maybe before asking her.
Today I forced myself to make a couple of phone calls I've been putting off. One was to my doctor's office who rejected a medication refill I've been taking for more than a year now. There was no information from the pharmacist about why it was rejected, so I left a message with the nurse to tell me if there's something I need to do to get it filled again. I was just in that doctor's office like four weeks ago for my weekly check-up, so there shouldn't be anything weird about getting it refilled as far as I know. The other phone call was to my benefits company who is saying I'm supposed to go back to work on Monday. There's no way I'm capable of that right now. I had to leave a message with that person too. According to their website, it looks like they haven't gotten any doctor information back, but my post-op check-up isn't until the 10th, so it's not like I have any other information to provide other than the initial info the doctor gave me, telling me eight weeks for recovery. So hopefully I get calls back on those tomorrow and make plans to do whatever it is they need from me.
I tried to go to sleep early tonight, and got maybe three-ish hours before I woke up and knew I couldn't get anymore sleep for the night. The severe stomach pain I've been having the past two nights is finally lessening though. It wasn't the only thing keeping me awake, but I think by the end of the week if the pain stays low-key I might try sleeping in the bed again. Once I get back to actually sleeping laying down, I think I'll be able to get my scheduled back on track. I want to be ready to get back to normal days/schedules by the time I have my appointment on the 10th, so I'll be ready for work if that's what the benefits people say. Though if I have to resort to taking more vacation hours, I could do that too just to make sure I'm actually ready to return physically and mentally before I go back.
There's also a lot of executive dysfunction that comes from being home and unable to do much, which goes with the short attention span. Sometimes I can just chill in front of Netflix and binge something for hours, but today all I had the attention for was short YouTube videos or half-hour tv shows that aren't following a narrative of any kind. I've been going back and catching up on old episodes of Hasan Minhaj's Patriot Act on Netflix, which is good because each episode has a different topic, there's no narrative to follow.
I did take a writing commission the other night from the person that was messaging my second AO3 account, it's only 2k words and they gave a really detailed outline of what they want. I told them I'd have it done within the week, but after a day like today where I just felt out of it most of the day, I don't really have the focus to work on it. I've got an idea on how it starts already though, so once I have the focus, I feel like I'll just be able to sit down and pound it out in a few hours.
I reached out to my sister and my best friend about coming out to visit me this week. I think if I had someone here with me, I could get a couple of things done and I know that having someone here will keep me from just losing several hours to sleep or brain fog. My sister is going to come out tomorrow and I want to go through the toddler clothes we have just in a big pile right now, maybe give her some if we have stuff that's still small enough for a baby since she's expecting.
My birthday is Wednesday and my best friend is going to come out that afternoon and said she might bring this old movie with her that we love for us to watch. I'm also hoping that the ThredUp bag I ordered might be here by then and she can help me pick out pieces to fill that up with to mail out. Matt's taking me out to a fancy dinner Wednesday night, so maybe if we don't have the ThredUp bag by then she'll be willing to help me do my makeup or something instead.
Maybe I can have Matt's mom come out again on Friday, depending on how she's feeling. Matt's dad was in the hospital over the weekend with low blood sugar/low blood pressure as a result of some medication interaction. He's home now and better, but I don't know if she'll feel up to leaving him alone come Friday or not. I'll wait until Thursday maybe before asking her.
Today I forced myself to make a couple of phone calls I've been putting off. One was to my doctor's office who rejected a medication refill I've been taking for more than a year now. There was no information from the pharmacist about why it was rejected, so I left a message with the nurse to tell me if there's something I need to do to get it filled again. I was just in that doctor's office like four weeks ago for my weekly check-up, so there shouldn't be anything weird about getting it refilled as far as I know. The other phone call was to my benefits company who is saying I'm supposed to go back to work on Monday. There's no way I'm capable of that right now. I had to leave a message with that person too. According to their website, it looks like they haven't gotten any doctor information back, but my post-op check-up isn't until the 10th, so it's not like I have any other information to provide other than the initial info the doctor gave me, telling me eight weeks for recovery. So hopefully I get calls back on those tomorrow and make plans to do whatever it is they need from me.
I tried to go to sleep early tonight, and got maybe three-ish hours before I woke up and knew I couldn't get anymore sleep for the night. The severe stomach pain I've been having the past two nights is finally lessening though. It wasn't the only thing keeping me awake, but I think by the end of the week if the pain stays low-key I might try sleeping in the bed again. Once I get back to actually sleeping laying down, I think I'll be able to get my scheduled back on track. I want to be ready to get back to normal days/schedules by the time I have my appointment on the 10th, so I'll be ready for work if that's what the benefits people say. Though if I have to resort to taking more vacation hours, I could do that too just to make sure I'm actually ready to return physically and mentally before I go back.
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Date: 2019-08-27 07:41 pm (UTC)You know, I don't have anything as acute as recovering from an operation going on, but I had never really considered the way I seem to react badly to "time off" even though I look forward to it as being executive dysfunction. It might help me cope better with it if I did. I am caught in a loop where I think that I never have enough time to do, for example, long writing projects when I'm working, but then when I have a gap in my working for whatever reason, I can't write anything much at all. Huh, food for thought.
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Date: 2019-08-28 09:27 pm (UTC)