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Terrible Dreams, Misfits & Magic
Jul. 14th, 2021 11:39 pmI had absolutely terrifying dreams last night. I'm off some of my meds for the couple of days before my next doctor's appointment because I've reached my limit on refills. Last night was pretty bad, I feel like I spent most of the night in that half-awake, half-asleep state where I was having the same dream just slightly different each time I fell asleep again.
I was in a strange apartment, it was my place, but I don't at all recognize it. And I had a roommate who I didn't recognize/associate with anyone from my life. And we lived up the hill from this little town square. The window above my headboard, in my bedroom looked down the hill into the square. I remember trying to sleep in this dream (I tend to regularly manufacture interrupted sleep situations in my dreams where my sleep is constantly interrupted, when my real life sleep is shitty.) In this dream someone tried to break into that window just above my bed. I was half-asleep in this dream and happened to look up and see through my curtains someone trying to fumble with the window locks. I screamed, my roommate came but the guy was scared off by my screams. I woke up enough in real life to be freaked out, turn over and try to sleep again.
Each iteration of this dream was the same, but slightly different. They guy never gets in, sometimes I call the cops, sometimes I don't. Sometimes he would harass us from outside - loud threatening music, messages or dolls/stuff toys pressed against the window to send a message. Once, we had someone - a cop, a friend, some other guy we knew well in the room with us trying to keep watch so that my roommate and I could sleep. Each time I'd wake up just enough from the dream to recognize the nightmare and calm down and go back to sleep, only to have a slightly different version of the dream again. Repeated until Matt's alarm went off and I didn't get any good solid sleep in my dream or in real life.
When I was a teenager and my sleep was really terrible, I would have these dreams about being a cashier who's trying to sleep on a cot behind the counter but I keep getting interrupted to ring up customers. All to keep waking up my real self because of course.
I very rarely have dreams this bad or nightmarish anymore - because of the good combo of sleep meds and a bedtime muscle relaxer I take for my fibromyalgia. Because of my meds I very rarely remember any of my dreams anymore, I sleep so deeply. But off them? back to nightmare town.
The nightmares brought my mood down all day today, just that uncomfortable, frightened feeling I couldn't shake.
I can watch all the horror movies in the world and never a problem. Miss a few pills and suddenly where I can't sleep as deep and I realize how much I've forgotten about how bad my nightmares can get. Just unsettling.
Will I still watch a horror movie tonight? Absolutely. LOL Can't stop me.
In happier news, even though I had to go back to work after hours tonight, I was able to catch up on the new episode of Dimension 20's Misfits and Magic. This show is maybe the best TTRPG show I've ever watched. Dimension 20 has done a lot of great shows, I think I talked about A Crown of Candy before and how much I loved it. But this one is different they're using the Kids on Bikes rule set, in a Harry Potter inspired (but very much eschewing all the trappings and baggage of that world and it's author) with a new GM, Aabria Iyengar. She's such a fun game master, Brennan the usual game master for D20 shows is a player along with Erika Ishii, Danielle Radford and Lou Wilson. I love it so much, I don't think even Critical Role has every made me laugh this hard.
There's a trailer for the show, here if it sounds like something you'd be interested in. It's a limited episode, pre-taped series coming out Wednesdays on Dropout. It's very good.
I also just finished the third book in the Rainbow Rowell Simon Snow trilogy, so having another magical world to visit after finishing that was very, very good. I know Rowell has been problematic, I know someone people don't like the way Fangirl was written or the Simon Snow series that came from it, but I have adored this series quite a lot. I inhaled this last book and I'm made that it's over, mad that there's unanswered questions and mad that there's not more to know about how things work out. I hope that even if it's not an extension of these series that we get more about the world some day.
Oh and I was able to finish Loki after I was done with work! AHHH all the feels. I have loved this very short series a whole lot more than I expected to. It's wonderful. I'm so pleased with what they did with it. Happy to squee about that kiss in the comments, or the ending, or anything else. (I definitely need Loki and Croki icons.)
I was in a strange apartment, it was my place, but I don't at all recognize it. And I had a roommate who I didn't recognize/associate with anyone from my life. And we lived up the hill from this little town square. The window above my headboard, in my bedroom looked down the hill into the square. I remember trying to sleep in this dream (I tend to regularly manufacture interrupted sleep situations in my dreams where my sleep is constantly interrupted, when my real life sleep is shitty.) In this dream someone tried to break into that window just above my bed. I was half-asleep in this dream and happened to look up and see through my curtains someone trying to fumble with the window locks. I screamed, my roommate came but the guy was scared off by my screams. I woke up enough in real life to be freaked out, turn over and try to sleep again.
Each iteration of this dream was the same, but slightly different. They guy never gets in, sometimes I call the cops, sometimes I don't. Sometimes he would harass us from outside - loud threatening music, messages or dolls/stuff toys pressed against the window to send a message. Once, we had someone - a cop, a friend, some other guy we knew well in the room with us trying to keep watch so that my roommate and I could sleep. Each time I'd wake up just enough from the dream to recognize the nightmare and calm down and go back to sleep, only to have a slightly different version of the dream again. Repeated until Matt's alarm went off and I didn't get any good solid sleep in my dream or in real life.
When I was a teenager and my sleep was really terrible, I would have these dreams about being a cashier who's trying to sleep on a cot behind the counter but I keep getting interrupted to ring up customers. All to keep waking up my real self because of course.
I very rarely have dreams this bad or nightmarish anymore - because of the good combo of sleep meds and a bedtime muscle relaxer I take for my fibromyalgia. Because of my meds I very rarely remember any of my dreams anymore, I sleep so deeply. But off them? back to nightmare town.
The nightmares brought my mood down all day today, just that uncomfortable, frightened feeling I couldn't shake.
I can watch all the horror movies in the world and never a problem. Miss a few pills and suddenly where I can't sleep as deep and I realize how much I've forgotten about how bad my nightmares can get. Just unsettling.
Will I still watch a horror movie tonight? Absolutely. LOL Can't stop me.
In happier news, even though I had to go back to work after hours tonight, I was able to catch up on the new episode of Dimension 20's Misfits and Magic. This show is maybe the best TTRPG show I've ever watched. Dimension 20 has done a lot of great shows, I think I talked about A Crown of Candy before and how much I loved it. But this one is different they're using the Kids on Bikes rule set, in a Harry Potter inspired (but very much eschewing all the trappings and baggage of that world and it's author) with a new GM, Aabria Iyengar. She's such a fun game master, Brennan the usual game master for D20 shows is a player along with Erika Ishii, Danielle Radford and Lou Wilson. I love it so much, I don't think even Critical Role has every made me laugh this hard.
There's a trailer for the show, here if it sounds like something you'd be interested in. It's a limited episode, pre-taped series coming out Wednesdays on Dropout. It's very good.
I also just finished the third book in the Rainbow Rowell Simon Snow trilogy, so having another magical world to visit after finishing that was very, very good. I know Rowell has been problematic, I know someone people don't like the way Fangirl was written or the Simon Snow series that came from it, but I have adored this series quite a lot. I inhaled this last book and I'm made that it's over, mad that there's unanswered questions and mad that there's not more to know about how things work out. I hope that even if it's not an extension of these series that we get more about the world some day.
Oh and I was able to finish Loki after I was done with work! AHHH all the feels. I have loved this very short series a whole lot more than I expected to. It's wonderful. I'm so pleased with what they did with it. Happy to squee about that kiss in the comments, or the ending, or anything else. (I definitely need Loki and Croki icons.)
