Apr. 12th, 2020
I'm on new daily med for my migraines and I'm starting out at a fourth a dose and working my way up over two weeks but so far it's not done much. Today was day three with this migraine and the worst day so far. I marked my pain a 9/10 on the app the doctor assigned me for tracking pain and symptoms because the only thing I was really capable of today was sleeping. At the moment, nearly 2:30am Sunday morning, I feel the best I've felt. That's after days of meds, lots of caffeine, lots of water and finally tonight two beers followed by a very, very hot shower. Then a cbd roll-on to my forehead with peppermint, rosemary and lavender. Then some lovely ASMR Reiki on YouTube to listen to while I try to relax before going to bed.
One of the ASMR Reiki artists I listen to on YouTube is saying "nobody wants anything from you in this moment; nobody needs anything from you in this moment" and man is that a powerful feeling too.
Had to forego bad movie night with my friends today because I knew I would not be a very good/fun companion. Between the head pain and the migraine nausea, I could barely concentrate on shows I wanted to watch when I was awake today.
I made it through two movies today, both from Amazon Prime. Though during the latter of the two, I started losing focus gain and had to rewind about twenty minutes of the movie near the end because I realized I hadn't followed anything that was happening.
I finally watched Troop Zero with Viola Davis and Allison Janney, about a group of kids who form a Birdie scout troop in the late 70's in the hopes of getting their voices on the golden record NASA is making that'll go out into space. I don't think it was as cheesy as I expected it to be, nor as saccharine. I enjoyed it over all.
The other one I watched was a new Amazon original called I See You which seemed like it was going to be a supernatural thriller, but wasn't exactly. And it's hard to describe exactly how the movie goes without giving much away. But at the center of it is this family, slowly breaking apart after some infidelity on the part of the mom played by Helen Hunt (nice to see a much older woman playing the mom in a role like this). While the father, a cop, starts investigating a missing kid, strange stuff starts happening in their house. The movie takes an odd turn about halfway through I wasn't expecting, definitely making it even creepier and the family and the missing kid case take a temporary backseat to this secondary story. As a thriller, I enjoyed it overall.
Last weekend I watched one of the the other Amazon originals Blow the Man Down. It's about two girls who in dealing with the aftermath of their mother's death, find themselves enmeshed in some of the shady underpinnings of their small Northeastern town. I REALLY loved this strange little movie. It's short and strange and centers around not just this young women but several powerful women in their town. An unusual kind of movie and very well done.
Bad movie night last week was The Man Who Killed Hitler and Then the Bigfoot starring Sam Elliot and Aiden Turner. This was a perfect pick off Hulu for bad movie night. With that kind of title it had to be something amazing and boy, was it ever. I cannot exactly describe this movie to you other than the title says all you really need to know. They really tried with this one and yet... they made this honest to goodness just bad movie.
I'm finding it hard to watch much television right now. So these movies, when I can focus, or for our bad movie nights with friends have been my breaks. I've picked up a couple of cozy shows like Psych and Black Books for when I need a laugh but don't want to binge. Those are nice to revisit right now too. If I can keep this migraine at bay tomorrow we might try a Sunday bad movie night instead. I hope we can make that happen. If not, I might grab Little Women and watch that for myself instead.
Is anyone else finding television binging more difficult right now?
One of the ASMR Reiki artists I listen to on YouTube is saying "nobody wants anything from you in this moment; nobody needs anything from you in this moment" and man is that a powerful feeling too.
Had to forego bad movie night with my friends today because I knew I would not be a very good/fun companion. Between the head pain and the migraine nausea, I could barely concentrate on shows I wanted to watch when I was awake today.
I made it through two movies today, both from Amazon Prime. Though during the latter of the two, I started losing focus gain and had to rewind about twenty minutes of the movie near the end because I realized I hadn't followed anything that was happening.
I finally watched Troop Zero with Viola Davis and Allison Janney, about a group of kids who form a Birdie scout troop in the late 70's in the hopes of getting their voices on the golden record NASA is making that'll go out into space. I don't think it was as cheesy as I expected it to be, nor as saccharine. I enjoyed it over all.
The other one I watched was a new Amazon original called I See You which seemed like it was going to be a supernatural thriller, but wasn't exactly. And it's hard to describe exactly how the movie goes without giving much away. But at the center of it is this family, slowly breaking apart after some infidelity on the part of the mom played by Helen Hunt (nice to see a much older woman playing the mom in a role like this). While the father, a cop, starts investigating a missing kid, strange stuff starts happening in their house. The movie takes an odd turn about halfway through I wasn't expecting, definitely making it even creepier and the family and the missing kid case take a temporary backseat to this secondary story. As a thriller, I enjoyed it overall.
Last weekend I watched one of the the other Amazon originals Blow the Man Down. It's about two girls who in dealing with the aftermath of their mother's death, find themselves enmeshed in some of the shady underpinnings of their small Northeastern town. I REALLY loved this strange little movie. It's short and strange and centers around not just this young women but several powerful women in their town. An unusual kind of movie and very well done.
Bad movie night last week was The Man Who Killed Hitler and Then the Bigfoot starring Sam Elliot and Aiden Turner. This was a perfect pick off Hulu for bad movie night. With that kind of title it had to be something amazing and boy, was it ever. I cannot exactly describe this movie to you other than the title says all you really need to know. They really tried with this one and yet... they made this honest to goodness just bad movie.
I'm finding it hard to watch much television right now. So these movies, when I can focus, or for our bad movie nights with friends have been my breaks. I've picked up a couple of cozy shows like Psych and Black Books for when I need a laugh but don't want to binge. Those are nice to revisit right now too. If I can keep this migraine at bay tomorrow we might try a Sunday bad movie night instead. I hope we can make that happen. If not, I might grab Little Women and watch that for myself instead.
Is anyone else finding television binging more difficult right now?
Fetch the Bolt Cutters
Apr. 12th, 2020 06:28 pmLike this isn't New Music Friday yet or anything (Maker, do I wish it was Friday though) but I do need to quickly update to say that the new Fiona Apple album I mentioned last Friday "Fetch the Bolt Cutters" is so ah-maze-ing. Work has been a ball of stress (as I mentioned yesterday) and I haven't done any yoga the last three days as I was getting used to in the last few weeks, but when I have time during the day to have something on that isn't a work meeting, it's this album. I mean. It's just so good. It's typical Fiona Apple sounds, but graduated to like this whole new level of good. I'm in love. If you want some song recs off the album to try, there's "I Want You to Love Me" with all the drama that title entails. There's "Shameika which I can't even describe really but is very self empowering. OH and "Under the Table which has all the power behind it that a line like "I would beg to disagree, but begging disagrees with me" implies. Lastly, there's "Ladies" which is about leaving behind your stuff for the next woman who takes up with an ex. But really, the whole thing.
I spent $40 tonight buying bleach and dye in order to dye Matt's hair blue once it all arrives. I don't know why he picked the hardest fucking color in the world to dye yourself when you're starting with dark hair. But whatever. It's the first time in his life he's in a position to do something fun with his hair and he's decided to make it blue until he gets the call to return to work. I polled the people in my life who do this sort of thing on their own to good results to figure out what they use and what they like and I THINK I'm prepared, but I guess we'll find out when it all gets here.
It's just as well that the beauty supply places I looked at didn't have hair clippers in stock, at least not any decently rated and well-priced ones. Because I'm so tempted right now to cut off the front sides of my undercut I've been growing out. The more the back of my undercut grows out, the more annoying it ALL is and having to be on video calls (they're expecting when available at least 75% of our staff in each meeting to have their videos turned on) it's a reminder of how much I hate what it looks like right now. Now I'm not some fucking Karen that wants my hairdresser back in the salon so he can fix my hair. I have a very overactive sensory issues that mean things like itches and hair growth and rough clothing trigger anxiety in not great ways. But I WANT these front sides grown out, so I'm trying my best to just deal.
Especially since we heard today from our executives that it'll be at least two more months before anyone returns back to working in the office and even then it'll only be a small percentage of our staffs. They'll continue to increase small percentages in our offices (10-15% returning every couple of weeks) as they track what the pandemic looks like in our area and how safe it is to continue to let people back into the building. Most of our teams are small (there's eight people on my team but those people are split among three specific dedicated tasks, plus me and my manager) so losing a couple of people of a team at a time for potentially weeks at a time, would really dent our productivity. When keeping us working from home optimally is the better long-term solution. Honestly, I while I'm stressed currently, I appreciate the efforts our office is taking to contain our workers and keep people safe as possible. Plus, I think it helps drive home exactly how serious it is in the areas where our people live.
I did find out that another team has requested me to upper management as a transfer to their team, not as a team lead but to move over as a developer. Honestly, it might be a pay bump and it'd be great experience. It's not exactly the career path I was headed towards, but having people request me specifically because of my current knowledge and experience is pretty cool. Although this would be a crazy time to be switching roles and trying to train up. I have no idea what that'd look like. Something to think about though.
I spent $40 tonight buying bleach and dye in order to dye Matt's hair blue once it all arrives. I don't know why he picked the hardest fucking color in the world to dye yourself when you're starting with dark hair. But whatever. It's the first time in his life he's in a position to do something fun with his hair and he's decided to make it blue until he gets the call to return to work. I polled the people in my life who do this sort of thing on their own to good results to figure out what they use and what they like and I THINK I'm prepared, but I guess we'll find out when it all gets here.
It's just as well that the beauty supply places I looked at didn't have hair clippers in stock, at least not any decently rated and well-priced ones. Because I'm so tempted right now to cut off the front sides of my undercut I've been growing out. The more the back of my undercut grows out, the more annoying it ALL is and having to be on video calls (they're expecting when available at least 75% of our staff in each meeting to have their videos turned on) it's a reminder of how much I hate what it looks like right now. Now I'm not some fucking Karen that wants my hairdresser back in the salon so he can fix my hair. I have a very overactive sensory issues that mean things like itches and hair growth and rough clothing trigger anxiety in not great ways. But I WANT these front sides grown out, so I'm trying my best to just deal.
Especially since we heard today from our executives that it'll be at least two more months before anyone returns back to working in the office and even then it'll only be a small percentage of our staffs. They'll continue to increase small percentages in our offices (10-15% returning every couple of weeks) as they track what the pandemic looks like in our area and how safe it is to continue to let people back into the building. Most of our teams are small (there's eight people on my team but those people are split among three specific dedicated tasks, plus me and my manager) so losing a couple of people of a team at a time for potentially weeks at a time, would really dent our productivity. When keeping us working from home optimally is the better long-term solution. Honestly, I while I'm stressed currently, I appreciate the efforts our office is taking to contain our workers and keep people safe as possible. Plus, I think it helps drive home exactly how serious it is in the areas where our people live.
I did find out that another team has requested me to upper management as a transfer to their team, not as a team lead but to move over as a developer. Honestly, it might be a pay bump and it'd be great experience. It's not exactly the career path I was headed towards, but having people request me specifically because of my current knowledge and experience is pretty cool. Although this would be a crazy time to be switching roles and trying to train up. I have no idea what that'd look like. Something to think about though.
Only a Little Music Sunday
Apr. 12th, 2020 06:28 pmHoly fucking migraines. This week has been the worst. I had such high hopes for this week and between work stress and migraines with pretty bad auras I've literally done nothing but work, play Assassin's Creed and sleep. My sister-in-law texted Friday to ask if we could babysit my niece again this weekend and I felt awful having to say no, but I told Matt that I was in the middle of the fifth day of hour after hour of people demanding my time well into my evenings every day this week. I didn't think my poor adorable niece was going to get the best Aunt out of me this weekend I would've wanted to be, I have no patience left in me. Plus, I've been tired and nauseous all day from this migraine, so I'm glad she wasn't here for me to be in pain and annoyed about it all day.
Sorry about that, I needed a little vent. But if you wondered where New Music Friday was, it got lost in a week's worth of back to back meetings and my broken neural receptors. I do have this one video I wanted to share, from a performer I've been following a long time now, I think maybe her album was one of the first things I ever Kickstarted after that platformed launched. She recently returned to YouTube with this wonderful looped mashup of cover songs that's just a good time. And two of the goodest and most handsome backupdancers sleepers ever.
The songs in the mash up go from Gin Wigmore's "Exs and Ohs" to Amy Winehouse's "Back in Black" with and some fun between. I think Kawehi was one of the first artists I watched build loops live as she prepared a song, which I know is like a normal thing now especially on Twitch. But at the time it was novel and I find her energy pretty engaging. Highly recommend if you like this mashup that you check out the rest of her YouTube channel which has more covers and a several of her originals. She pretty local to me too and yet I've never seen her live. Now that she's active again, when the lockdowns are lifted, I'm hoping she'll be doing shows again.
My friends and I have shifted our Bad Movie nights to Sunday nights instead of Saturday. Tonight we watched a comedy horror film from New Zealand called Killer Sofa. And it was quite the experience. If you can stand a little bit of blood that might come with your generic sort of horror movie, but you need a good laugh, I'd highly recommend this to let a bit of the giggles out. Disclaimer, it's definitely not about a sofa. It's a recliner and it honest to goodness gets up and walks around on it's footrest. It's worth the laugh.
I hope everyone else is doing okay. If you watched fun or silly movie, or listened to something good this week let me know! I'd love to hear about it.
Sorry about that, I needed a little vent. But if you wondered where New Music Friday was, it got lost in a week's worth of back to back meetings and my broken neural receptors. I do have this one video I wanted to share, from a performer I've been following a long time now, I think maybe her album was one of the first things I ever Kickstarted after that platformed launched. She recently returned to YouTube with this wonderful looped mashup of cover songs that's just a good time. And two of the goodest and most handsome backup
The songs in the mash up go from Gin Wigmore's "Exs and Ohs" to Amy Winehouse's "Back in Black" with and some fun between. I think Kawehi was one of the first artists I watched build loops live as she prepared a song, which I know is like a normal thing now especially on Twitch. But at the time it was novel and I find her energy pretty engaging. Highly recommend if you like this mashup that you check out the rest of her YouTube channel which has more covers and a several of her originals. She pretty local to me too and yet I've never seen her live. Now that she's active again, when the lockdowns are lifted, I'm hoping she'll be doing shows again.
My friends and I have shifted our Bad Movie nights to Sunday nights instead of Saturday. Tonight we watched a comedy horror film from New Zealand called Killer Sofa. And it was quite the experience. If you can stand a little bit of blood that might come with your generic sort of horror movie, but you need a good laugh, I'd highly recommend this to let a bit of the giggles out. Disclaimer, it's definitely not about a sofa. It's a recliner and it honest to goodness gets up and walks around on it's footrest. It's worth the laugh.
I hope everyone else is doing okay. If you watched fun or silly movie, or listened to something good this week let me know! I'd love to hear about it.
Another round of horror movies
Apr. 12th, 2020 06:28 pmLast week ![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
impala_chick posted this link of horror movies available on Amazon Prime that were worth watching. Horror movies are a bit like comfort food, it's just something to put on so my brain can let go of the wheel for a little while.
I started with a Netflix movie, "As Above, So Below" which gave me so many interesting thoughts about where that story could go after the movie ends. Like enough that I might just add it to my Yuletide noms at the end of the year, because I've got about a page worth of ideas that would be worth putting out into the universe, whether I write them or not.
But then with this list, I've movied on to:
The Descent
A movie I'd somehow missed out on when it came out. I don't know why, maybe bad marketing where I live? I'd heard about it a few times and I know a few people that LOVE it. It was definitely a good movie to follow "As Above, So Below" with, given the general theme of caves and enclosed spaces with limited resources. I can also very much see now why so many people described the novel The Luminous Dead as The Descent but in Space. The creatures of the cave remind me of the pale orc from The Hobbit. I didn't really feel attached to any of the women in the movie, so as they started to die, I didn't really care? And I wasn't too freaked out by the creatures or the "jump"scares, so that didn't feel too scary to me either. Honestly, this felt less like a horror movie and more like a shark movie... if that makes sense? You know the horror, it's the ocean and the things inside it and it's your own fault for being there.
Climax
Oh. My. Everloving. God. What is this fucking movie. Listen. Please tell me someone else has watched this movie and then tell me what you thought about this movie. Because this movie is both a literal and metaphorical trip. Climax, is a Gaspar Noe movie about a group of dancers put together for a tour (what appears to be a kind of house party troupe, their choreography is VERY reminiscent of something straight out of a drag house competition. It stars Sophia Boutella as one of the lead dancers of the troupe and (maybe?) one of the organizers of the group. Anyway, after a long three days of rehearsal, the group has a party in what appears to be an old church where they've been living/working. During this party the camera pans from person to person to person catching strange conversations, flirtations, and brief dances amongst the group. Shit takes a turns about halfway through after literal credits run. IDK man. It's not what I expected and not really what I'd consider a horror movie either... it's definitely weird though.
Anna and the Apocalypse
The best by far, so far anyway. This came highly recommended and did not disappoint, despite how much it's trying to do all at once. This is simultaneously trying to be a high school movie, a musical and a zombie comedy movie and honestly it succeeds on all fronts. My only minor complain is that I definitely felt that the woman playing Steph should've been the lead, her voice was far stronger and more interesting than the lead character's. I also found the actual "villain" of the movie to be a bit of let down, in an 'evil just 'cause' kind of way. But the rest of the movie is just an enjoyable ride. Highly recommend if you like a musical and like a fun zombie flick.
I've pulled the full list from the site and definitely plan to make my way down what I haven't seen from the list. For the most part, I'm going in order, skipping what I've seen. Although there are some old favorites on there too, so I might do a rewatch of those just for funsies. I did recently rewatch "Cabin in the Woods" though, so I probably won't do that one again anytime soon.
Any comfort movie genres you guys are dipping into?
impala_chick posted this link of horror movies available on Amazon Prime that were worth watching. Horror movies are a bit like comfort food, it's just something to put on so my brain can let go of the wheel for a little while. I started with a Netflix movie, "As Above, So Below" which gave me so many interesting thoughts about where that story could go after the movie ends. Like enough that I might just add it to my Yuletide noms at the end of the year, because I've got about a page worth of ideas that would be worth putting out into the universe, whether I write them or not.
But then with this list, I've movied on to:
The Descent
A movie I'd somehow missed out on when it came out. I don't know why, maybe bad marketing where I live? I'd heard about it a few times and I know a few people that LOVE it. It was definitely a good movie to follow "As Above, So Below" with, given the general theme of caves and enclosed spaces with limited resources. I can also very much see now why so many people described the novel The Luminous Dead as The Descent but in Space. The creatures of the cave remind me of the pale orc from The Hobbit. I didn't really feel attached to any of the women in the movie, so as they started to die, I didn't really care? And I wasn't too freaked out by the creatures or the "jump"scares, so that didn't feel too scary to me either. Honestly, this felt less like a horror movie and more like a shark movie... if that makes sense? You know the horror, it's the ocean and the things inside it and it's your own fault for being there.
Climax
Oh. My. Everloving. God. What is this fucking movie. Listen. Please tell me someone else has watched this movie and then tell me what you thought about this movie. Because this movie is both a literal and metaphorical trip. Climax, is a Gaspar Noe movie about a group of dancers put together for a tour (what appears to be a kind of house party troupe, their choreography is VERY reminiscent of something straight out of a drag house competition. It stars Sophia Boutella as one of the lead dancers of the troupe and (maybe?) one of the organizers of the group. Anyway, after a long three days of rehearsal, the group has a party in what appears to be an old church where they've been living/working. During this party the camera pans from person to person to person catching strange conversations, flirtations, and brief dances amongst the group. Shit takes a turns about halfway through after literal credits run. IDK man. It's not what I expected and not really what I'd consider a horror movie either... it's definitely weird though.
Anna and the Apocalypse
The best by far, so far anyway. This came highly recommended and did not disappoint, despite how much it's trying to do all at once. This is simultaneously trying to be a high school movie, a musical and a zombie comedy movie and honestly it succeeds on all fronts. My only minor complain is that I definitely felt that the woman playing Steph should've been the lead, her voice was far stronger and more interesting than the lead character's. I also found the actual "villain" of the movie to be a bit of let down, in an 'evil just 'cause' kind of way. But the rest of the movie is just an enjoyable ride. Highly recommend if you like a musical and like a fun zombie flick.
I've pulled the full list from the site and definitely plan to make my way down what I haven't seen from the list. For the most part, I'm going in order, skipping what I've seen. Although there are some old favorites on there too, so I might do a rewatch of those just for funsies. I did recently rewatch "Cabin in the Woods" though, so I probably won't do that one again anytime soon.
Any comfort movie genres you guys are dipping into?
Better than last week
Apr. 12th, 2020 06:28 pmI've been watching the next horror movie on the list, new to me, called "Resolution". It's nearly finished but I'll probably have to put off the last however long for tomorrow and post some final thoughts after then. But the whole movie has given me some very strange deja-vu where I feel like I've watched the whole movie before but none of this specific movie makes sense? There's some heavily lifted elements out of a movie called "The Endless" from however many years ago (2012/2013?) but that's not it...completely. I feel like maybe I did watch this and it's just not memorable enough to trigger anything specific. I'm really only hanging around for the ending to validate my own curiosity on whether the ending seems recognizable or not. Very strange.
This week has already been a little stressful at work, but I'm trying to tone down the indulging I allowed myself to do last week. I'm trying to allow myself some gaming but reign in the time so that I'm back to doing 15-20 minutes of yoga a night and then taking at least 10 minutes to do some other specific task or part of a task that I know needs doing. One of my goals since I now know it could be months two-six at the least or more before I'm back in the office, is to get our back guest room in the kind of order I can get a desk in there to move in my big desktop computer and monitors and having my proper gaming space back. I think having a dedicated space to work in that room and then still having my vanity space in my bedroom to keep separate from work stuff will be a nice way to feel a little more like I'm actively able to separate the two. Especially when i have these production issues that are taking me into 6 or 7 or later at night.
The yoga app I've been using, Downward Dog has been free so far, but is supposed to go back to paid version on like May 2nd. I don't know if they'll plan to extend that since there are several places lifting restrictions early in May. But I also don't know that I can afford to pay for the full app when I'm really only using a very small portion of what it offers. I'm using their chair yoga option, so I don't have to wreck my knees kneeling (it doesn't matter what I'm kneeling on, I have no cartilage in my knees so any time on them is too long). it's been working really well for me because it's not restricted to just chair movements, it lets me use the chair to modify things like down dog and warrior and things like that. But the app itself is full of options I know I'll never use and is very pricey when I'm only using that small bit. I have tried the Yoga Nidra option (which is like sleep yoga) but obviously I've gone to sleep pretty fast when I've tried it so I don't know how effective it is or how often I'll use it since music is just as effective for me there.
I did use a plus size yoga program through Alo for awhile that I'd paid for, and while I liked a lot of the modifications they did for larger bodies, it still assumes you've got good knees. LOL. So I need to investigate an alternative to switch to. I know there's some individual youtube flows, but I cannot watch and/or do the same flow day after day. IDK maybe I'll figure out how to suck it up and pay for the whole year at once which would be cheaper than the monthly payments. I just really dig how customization the app is, especially on more stressful days when I can feel everything sitting on my shoulders, I can work on those specifically and get some of the tension out on my own. But if anyone has suggestions, I'd be open to them!
This week already feels different from last week even with the continued work frustrations and I know it's because I'm indulging and ignoring less and just giving at least 10 minutes (you can do anything for ten minutes) to something I need to get done. Like unloading books on shelves, rearranging the back room, cleaning out a junk-filled closet. It's helping.
Hope this week is starting off better than last week for you too.
This week has already been a little stressful at work, but I'm trying to tone down the indulging I allowed myself to do last week. I'm trying to allow myself some gaming but reign in the time so that I'm back to doing 15-20 minutes of yoga a night and then taking at least 10 minutes to do some other specific task or part of a task that I know needs doing. One of my goals since I now know it could be months two-six at the least or more before I'm back in the office, is to get our back guest room in the kind of order I can get a desk in there to move in my big desktop computer and monitors and having my proper gaming space back. I think having a dedicated space to work in that room and then still having my vanity space in my bedroom to keep separate from work stuff will be a nice way to feel a little more like I'm actively able to separate the two. Especially when i have these production issues that are taking me into 6 or 7 or later at night.
The yoga app I've been using, Downward Dog has been free so far, but is supposed to go back to paid version on like May 2nd. I don't know if they'll plan to extend that since there are several places lifting restrictions early in May. But I also don't know that I can afford to pay for the full app when I'm really only using a very small portion of what it offers. I'm using their chair yoga option, so I don't have to wreck my knees kneeling (it doesn't matter what I'm kneeling on, I have no cartilage in my knees so any time on them is too long). it's been working really well for me because it's not restricted to just chair movements, it lets me use the chair to modify things like down dog and warrior and things like that. But the app itself is full of options I know I'll never use and is very pricey when I'm only using that small bit. I have tried the Yoga Nidra option (which is like sleep yoga) but obviously I've gone to sleep pretty fast when I've tried it so I don't know how effective it is or how often I'll use it since music is just as effective for me there.
I did use a plus size yoga program through Alo for awhile that I'd paid for, and while I liked a lot of the modifications they did for larger bodies, it still assumes you've got good knees. LOL. So I need to investigate an alternative to switch to. I know there's some individual youtube flows, but I cannot watch and/or do the same flow day after day. IDK maybe I'll figure out how to suck it up and pay for the whole year at once which would be cheaper than the monthly payments. I just really dig how customization the app is, especially on more stressful days when I can feel everything sitting on my shoulders, I can work on those specifically and get some of the tension out on my own. But if anyone has suggestions, I'd be open to them!
This week already feels different from last week even with the continued work frustrations and I know it's because I'm indulging and ignoring less and just giving at least 10 minutes (you can do anything for ten minutes) to something I need to get done. Like unloading books on shelves, rearranging the back room, cleaning out a junk-filled closet. It's helping.
Hope this week is starting off better than last week for you too.