Avoiding other things
Mar. 7th, 2019 11:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
singedsunI've been avoiding writing by working on making some icons for the Chiaroscuro challenge at ![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
icontalking. I watched Highrise on Netflix the other day and there were so many good moments but I got two that stuck with me and made some icons out of them.
Take them & use them if you, like me, love Tom Hiddleston. (Just creditsingedsun, if you do.)
I've also discovered some musicians on Twitch that do some really awesome live sessions. For New Music Friday I might drop links to a few people I've discovered. They're not new, just new to me so they might be new to other people too.
It's been a tough week, so I haven't been feeling up to much. I went in for an ultrasound Wednesday morning which turned into two ultrasounds, the second being a surprise and far more invasive and painful than I was expecting. I felt pretty unsettled the rest of the day.
Work has also been kind of rough. I decided not to apply for the manager position that I should've been in line for, because the more I thought about it the worse I felt about the whole situation. My current manager who is technically in her new role but still acting as our manager, has said that if I'm smart I'd start looking to transition into a more Business Analyst role which is coming open soon. So, that might be the way I go. I'll be sad not to be a Team Lead if that's the way things go, because I do like it. It just seems like the writing is on the wall in that regard that either the manager or team lead role goes away and upper management clearly doesn't feel like I'm ready to actually be responsible for having people reporting to me directly. Besides, BA work is pretty much where my brain lives 90% of the time, so I wouldn't mind at all scooting into that kind of role full time.
What's been rough there, aside from the uncertainty of where the structure of our organization is going and having to kind of turn away from a role I've really wanted for a long time, is not knowing who I can trust. I always thought my current manager and I were on the same page. She's known she was leaving since October and didn't say a word to me about it, or even suggest ways I could've been better prepared for stepping into her shoes. I don't get a good read on her boss either. And who the fuck knows what the manager they bring in is going to be like.
And then tomorrow, I have to start training a new contractor. Our manager won't even be around for that. So I've basically been giving the reins for the full time management of the team day to day, but that doesn't make me qualified enough to actually get the job. :/ It's shades of past jobs all over again and I'm really hoping that they're capable of turning it into something good.
icontalking. I watched Highrise on Netflix the other day and there were so many good moments but I got two that stuck with me and made some icons out of them.Take them & use them if you, like me, love Tom Hiddleston. (Just credit
singedsun, if you do.) I've also discovered some musicians on Twitch that do some really awesome live sessions. For New Music Friday I might drop links to a few people I've discovered. They're not new, just new to me so they might be new to other people too.
It's been a tough week, so I haven't been feeling up to much. I went in for an ultrasound Wednesday morning which turned into two ultrasounds, the second being a surprise and far more invasive and painful than I was expecting. I felt pretty unsettled the rest of the day.
Work has also been kind of rough. I decided not to apply for the manager position that I should've been in line for, because the more I thought about it the worse I felt about the whole situation. My current manager who is technically in her new role but still acting as our manager, has said that if I'm smart I'd start looking to transition into a more Business Analyst role which is coming open soon. So, that might be the way I go. I'll be sad not to be a Team Lead if that's the way things go, because I do like it. It just seems like the writing is on the wall in that regard that either the manager or team lead role goes away and upper management clearly doesn't feel like I'm ready to actually be responsible for having people reporting to me directly. Besides, BA work is pretty much where my brain lives 90% of the time, so I wouldn't mind at all scooting into that kind of role full time.
What's been rough there, aside from the uncertainty of where the structure of our organization is going and having to kind of turn away from a role I've really wanted for a long time, is not knowing who I can trust. I always thought my current manager and I were on the same page. She's known she was leaving since October and didn't say a word to me about it, or even suggest ways I could've been better prepared for stepping into her shoes. I don't get a good read on her boss either. And who the fuck knows what the manager they bring in is going to be like.
And then tomorrow, I have to start training a new contractor. Our manager won't even be around for that. So I've basically been giving the reins for the full time management of the team day to day, but that doesn't make me qualified enough to actually get the job. :/ It's shades of past jobs all over again and I'm really hoping that they're capable of turning it into something good.
